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She used to look at you in a different angles
her inspirations, her strength, her knowledge, you looking upon her tears that shed were they all worth all this denial of pure discouragement She find it hard to talk, breathe or even look it's too hard now patience and acceptance were her virtues not anymore not with you exhusted that she could no longer find comfort and support She flew far, just to keep her from falling too hard again Maybe she should have spoke, maybe it's too late now She could understand the meaning of 'demoralised' How could one make it all better once more imperfection was who you saw she was imperfection was who you made her to see imperfection was all she could feel How touch could never heal How words could never hear She was left to stand and not fall sit and not walk away But she chose..... to walk away in tears and never looking up once again
Staying AWAKE for 20 hours is absolutely not a joke with the fact that one had hardly ever slept the night before The clothes stinked, legs ached, dry eyes Even though one loved the last day of school, one hated it too Thank goodness... that one day of 26th May is finally over one's officially on my holidays! just in time for GREAT S'PORE SALE such good timing right! One's thankful for the many patience and encouragements a love have given despite the many days one had been on a grumpy mood love still gave that neverending love To love, with love Planning the next few days aint that bad I'm craving for a martini, chill out music hazelnut latte, shutterbugs, a good massage, a non stop shopping spree and a hug from love! And I hope... It begins with a lil chill out with the peeps tonight A nice beach birthday for couzzin dommy on sunday A home visit to kiddo's home on monday and tuesday Clubbing @thumper on tuesday A late revamping of my room from Tuesday to Friday and not forgetting my evaluation reports Weekends reserved for my love and peeps In 12 days... I FLY.... GOODBYE! oh! I'm beginning to love holidays!
4am
Sleepy Grumpy Disorganized Braindead Hungry Rushing Aching I'm Screwed I want my baby!
I'm rambling here at the stroke of 6.
The wee hours of the morning has once been visited again not because I'm in such mood of staying up But waking up especially at 4.30am just to complete some left over work. I hate last minute work makes one feel so disorganised but it's ironic, cause I work better and faster I'm only a quarter done, and headline's on Friday Dance tunes makes tired bodies more alive I'm exhausted, with hardly any oxygen for my brain my nose's been blocked for ages that baybee say I'm utterly DEAF A zip on my forehead aint making it any better either. Looking at my desk, I can hardly explain I wonder how I can ever pack or find my things This June, I'm packing and revamping my little sty with the aid of Singapore Sale! I'm glad they invented a place called ikea And so, I hardly slept but the panadol did wonders I would know I'll be sleepy like a pig @work later But I'm trying hard to open my darn eyes just for breakkie with my love "Come one Avril!, get your ass off and bath soon!!!" Counting down I'm off in 15 days and never coming back, who knows Well, a last chance to see yours truly Thumper @6 June 2006 Any takers? 6.06am and I'm beginning to fall back to my dream Had a dream just now that I always longed for Simple, comfort, bliss and just nice It wasn't too drama or a hassle And I better get my ass off for my bath! Breakkie with baybee always makes my morning! *P.E.R.F.E.C.T* and hoepfully, just hopefully I last this very day!
So little time... too much martini I thought I saw the day was Friday despite the fast pace weekend I woke up with a spinning headache. I figured. Two nights in a row of martinis How much is going through my head now? I'm feeling a little sick not because I know that it's Monday but I never do know why my throat's beginning to swell, my body's aching my mind's fucking up! Someone please tell me why imperfection plays a big role to such anger as the heart would speak I felt that imperfection once more this week it didn't feel good, it never did Another incident made me think twice about my worth how far would I be wanted? Loss, questions, doubts and emptiness I know I could have done better if I was given a chance once more To add a lil discipline in my life I re- registered my application to the uni and accepted my loss of money in not giving tuition anymore Looking back on 23 years of my life, I have to do something for myself I feel sick and pukey. But I need to go on one more week for the busy schedule to end and I'm off to Aussie. I can't wait baybee... you know I can't. We've been so uptight and busy with our work it kills not having enough time each day I'm sorry for being a lil nag or rather..... screaming at myself *hugs* I pray it would be a better week ahead Lala's needs a hug
 The flights been booked Anxious and excited! 3 destinations in all makes Lala happy First stop: Baybee's home sweet home Next stop: A long awaited visit to my bestie's Egeria! and last of all.. Sydney: Our dream As many mentioned it "pre-honeymoon" I would gladly agree We deserve it baby! for working too darn hard these days! XOXO
Happy Brithday Mama
with loving kisses from down below know that u're watching us from above Remembering the old times at Macpherson where life seems such a bliss carefree and happy I miss your cooking your room, your smiles, your laughters How you often made food to suit our difference indvidual tastebuds and it's only especially for your grandchildren As we cleaned her niche and put new flowers there's never a time I looked at her picture without a tear My heart's crying for the loss of my beloved we often speak of how we wished she was here right here, right now My grandma, my love U're truly missed and always loved with the greatest love and memories we share in this lifetime Happy birthday once again U'll be 89 today
R - Roads, lost roads. O - Oh! look baybee.. Oh! They have Mango? A - Ashlee's Simpson's L>O>V>E jukebox's singing D - Drive with an attidue, drive with UTURNs T - The malaysia workers @Joey's... working late till 11pm. R- Road trip to KL? *Joey screams!! "NO!!! Where's the U turn?" I - I had Ben's and Jerry's for breakkie with Candice and Ange P - Plazas' hopping! We conquered JB! NO A&W? S - Shopping Dvds! Too many to count! We went MAD! XOXO I'm beginning to lurve little road trips I love the cap and the skirt I bought NO heels nor shoes... BUT the dvds were good enough to make up for the loss I am offically an owner of all the seasons of OC! and of course.... many more Pictures up soon! Heading out with baybee soon Be back tonight!
What a polling weekend
with over 50 plus shutterbuggies over just 3 days It's no wonder why my pc's outta space! *pictures will be up soon, I promise* Friday's red birthday for the babe-o A.N.D.R.E.A Saturday's NON stop shopping spree @Far East Sunday LAZE and DAZE with baybee Lala's happy and contended! Looking forward to this coming Friday's holidae when Baybee and I would drive up to Malaysia! *Yipeeee* I can't wait! For now Mon, Tue, Wed - Tuition Thursday - Rest! Friday - Lil trip across the causeway Saturday - Rest! Sunday - Mummy's special day and my loved late grandma's birthday Oh! I need my sleep now!
 XOXO I can't wait
 The hours never felt so longThe Tim sum never felt so yummy The rain never felt so good The car never felt so clean The slippers never felt so comfory The day never felt so loved Finally a day off with love Nothing beats this, more than anything else but you
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+*In Perfect SiLence*+
+*interest*!+
+*In another Merryland*!+
+*HeLLo STrAngER*!+
+*New piX uploaDED*!+
+*BoreD?*+
Click on START first, and wait till the background color changes. Once it changes, hit STOP! The addiction starts here..
+*Weren't they just memories?*!+
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